For You

Tears stain the walls of my home
Flung from my fingertips
I cry for you

Spots worn thin on the carpet there
Down on bended knee
I pray for you

Blood trickled down his face
Hanging on that cross
He died for you

From this to that

How can you go from this to that
In the span of twenty six years
How can we be smiles one day
The next uncontrollable tears

How is life so fragile
You didn't plan it that way
How could you be gone
You had so much more to say

How can my heart hurt for you
When you don't feel any pain
How can I forget your smile
When it's seared inside my brain

How will life go on from here
Different but it will go on
How do I know this for sure
You were here, now your gone

He IS My Portion

On BibleGateway part of todays reading passage is "My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." (Psalm 73:26).  This message stuck me as particularly important to day because of a conversation that I had this morning. 

We are all going to die at some time.  We don't know when or how, but we do know it is a certainty.  But if we live our lives in fear of death and the unknown, then we are telling God that His strenth is insufficient to carry us through.  This verse says what we should be feeling beautifully "God is the strenght of my heart and my portion forever".  He is all we need. 

It still amazes me how a verse can be read 14 times, not really meaning anything, then that one time you read it, it is like God just added that in there that day for you.  I love you God and thank you for your continual inspiration.

Seasons of my Life

I've been afraid of changing cause I built my life around you.  But time makes you bolder, children get older, and I'm getting older too. ~Stevie Nicks (Fleetwood Mac, Landslide)

As I was watching TV yesterday, I came across Stevie Nicks singing Landslide with Sheryl Crow.  For some reason tears start falling down my cheeks.  I always am aware, but for some reason I just pondered it more on this occasion than normally.  I am getting older.  My children are getting older too.  Those singer/songwriters that I have loved so long are aging, dying.  Ten years ago if  you would have told me I would be watching television coverage about Michael Jackson or Patrick Swayze dying I would have thought you were nuts. 

We don't really dwell on our mortality that much, well we try not to I suppose.  But if we don't, do we really live life like we should?  If I knew then what I know now, I would have burned memories into my brain, cherished them forever.  Stevie Nicks wouldn't have had that impact on me for sure.  I wouldn't think about people I've lost and wished that I'd have spent more time with them. 

Life is exactly like a landslide.  One day you are standing on top of the mountain, looking around at God's masterpiece.  In the blink of an eye, you are tumbling down, you've lost your footing. sliding and can't get a grasp. 

Really pay attention while you are on top of the mountain.  Look deeper than the surface.